Let me set the record straight. It is Christ which strengtheneth me.
I’ve heard many times “God will not give you more than you can bear”… I know they say it meaning well, but it’s simply not true. God has given me much more than I can bear.
“You are so strong”
I am much too weak to face another trial, another day of grief, another day of heartache.
“God knew you could handle this”
I am no different than anyone else. God didn’t take my son or give me disabled children because I could deal with it better than the next person.
He has been our strength when these things happened. And, if they happened to you, He would be your strength as well. Just as He already has for the trials you have faced!
I have been broken and my pieces are not put back together perfectly… in fact, there seems to be some pieces missing.
I am tired.
I am weary.
I will live the rest of my life aching to hold my Elijah.
I will always wonder why Abigail has to suffer and someday my arms will ache for her as well.
I will always miss my mom.
I will still shed tears, have days where I don’t want to face another day, hide my pain with a forced smile.
This is simply my life and I have no choice… but to keep breathing.
Any good, and I repeat any good, that has come out of my life is all Him. It’s not about me. I am not strong. I am not able to survive another moment without Him.
Please do not misquote the following verse.
“There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.” 1 Corinthians 10:13
Please do remind me of this verse.
“I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.” Philippians 4:13
You are so right Clarissa. We do NOT bear these trials and walk with a smile unless God in His goodness blesses us with strength and courage to take another step. We who have had hard trials often look back and really do see how often it is that Jesus has carried us. Like you said, He has done it all, that is why we do not see any of our footprints along those hard pathways…. He has always carried us and He does promise to carry us to the end of our journey….. I do believe that each trial is in one way or another, strengthening for our next trial. We will always ask WHY LORD, why so many trials for me…. but remember He has only good in His heart for us…. He wants us to be with Him in eternity…. to praise and honor Him without any of these trials, nor any remembrance of a single bad moment of this journey…. and there with us will be all of our loved ones that we so miss when they have departed from this life. Jesus has come into our hearts for one purpose…. to save us from the curse of our sin…. HIS LOVE AND GRACE NEVER ENDS! We pray that you will continue to look to Him always for strength to face each new day. We love you and thank God for you!
Amen!! We cant bear anything on our own but HE will give you the grace to get through. Been praying for you, for healing, and strength. I can't begin to imagine what your going through. I will be keeping you and your family in my prayers.
Thank you Sharla! :O)
AMEN!! Love you!
So well said. I too do not like that saying. I don't like being asked "hoe did you get through that ". I just say I didn't. God carried me. Thank you for putting it into words. Praying for all of you, always.
So true Shan…. and when you sent flowers with "God will carry you" after Elijah died, it was sooo comforting! Thanks for praying my friend, you are often in my prayers as well!
yes, Clarissa it is all in God. YOu said it very well. Praying for him to help you bare it ALL! Love You!
AMEN!!! I thank God for you and for all HE has been for you!! It is so true..HE bears ALL things..WE can do NOTHING, it is ALL Christ!!!